11/05/2024
Hi everyone. I’ve decided to take a step back and take a while off to focus on my health and family . I apologize for any inconvenience for anyone now or in the future , but with much prayer, thought, and guidance from my family and physicians and specialists, we have determined it’s best I take a break for my health . I work incredibly hard , and I don’t know when to stop or let up and have pushed my self for 5 years with my business and never say “no” or turn down work . I don’t have to work . My husband takes great care of us and has begged me for years to stop working and just enjoy life. I just can not physically keep up. I push through my pain everyday . I take meds to help , but it never stops . I put on a smile and make it seem I’m all good . I’m not and that’s okay 🙂 picking up and moving furniture and bending down and putting pressure on my hands for sometimes 12 hrs straight with only a 30 min break isn’t healthy . I realize that now .
I was diagnosed with a genetic , mutated gene a couple months back and it explained why I had been dealing with certain issues my entire life . This particular auto immune disorder is linked to Leukemia. So , I need to deal with that 🫶🏻
I received test after test after test . I found out through a specialist I have carpal tunnel in both my hands and I have rheumatoid arthritis as well on top of my Fibromyalgia and other nerve and muscle diagnoses . My hands have failed me . I can longer grip or open simple bags or jars of pickles . It’s difficult to even hold a pen between fingers as I feel no strength or grip then my whole hand goes numb and starts to burn . My entire business revolves around working with my hands painting and sanding and lifting heavy furniture. I can barely hold my sprayer up.
There is no “cure” , however I have been getting up at 3:45 in the mornings Monday-Friday and going to the gym to strengthen my hands and body in general 🙂 Physical therapy has been helpful as well . I’ve also been going to an amazing church and getting more involved in my spiritual journey . My husband and son have been right beside me through it all 🤎
This is no easy post for me to have to make . It’s been months of trying to figure out how to still do what I love and give myself a break , but I can’t do anything half hazardly . I feel I’ve let myself and my clients down . That’s a horrible feeling !!! That’s the hardest part of any of this . I would push through the pain and exhaustion just to make my clients happy because that’s what I LOVE 😍 I love you all and thank you for the 5 years of wonderful friendship and relationships between each of you . Hopefully , I will get back to it one day in near future, until then I’m going to focus on myself and family .
God bless
Bethany