Tongue Ties

25/11/2019

In my struggles of my darkest hour, I found someone who was also damaged ..,,but also a flower,

In her past When it was dark she wilted away
But she found strength and the light in which she swore she would stay,

now she spreads her colour
As a true friend and an amazing mother.

She overcome her past and fought away from the dark
She has inspired me and In in my heart she has left her mark.

The colour she brings I feel is mine. And together as soul sisters we will always shine.

We will leave our past struggles together and leave the dark.
We will work on finding others light to ignite and spark.

My beautiful flower who came from the dark.
Thank you for helping me, find my light and my life spark

16/11/2019

It’s like going through life without understanding a feeling,
Trying to cope with each day, and constantly just dealing.
Feeling lost and alone and sometimes used.
And feeling that it’s your fault that you were at some point hurt or abused.

Sometimes we look for light in the darkest places
We show the world what we want them to see, with masks on our faces.
Constantly thinking about and analysing our life choices
Trying not to think about negative and ignore the harsh voices

After our walls were dropped and our kindness was shown, we were often hurt and Often feel alone.
You can’t explain to someone what’s ...going on inside.
You would rather shut down and find somewhere to hide.

People will look at you and think that you are cold
They will tell you what to do, their own version of you, they want to mould.
Just getting out of bed or doing a everyday task
Which just feels so hard, how long will this tiredness last?

I often sit and wonder what is wrong with me.
I just want to feel happy, normal together and free.
Instead I
Feel total panic and I push people away.
I am just trying to breath and praying my composure will stay.

I don’t want the world thinking I am sick or mad,
They won’t understand why I am frightened and often so sad.
How can I explain to someone ...what I have gone through
When everyday, I wake and I just hope I can start anew.

We are often judged, mistaken and misunderstood.
We are hard on ourselves saying would will and we should.

It’s hard to fall asleep or rest through the night.
As we are Often having nightmares and feeling nothing but fright.

You can’t explain to some of your colleges why
You might be overwhelmed and often feel shy.
Police officers are supposed to be hard and tough.
And not ever feel that enough is enough.

There is this view, that we should be ok standing on the front line.
But after numerous hits our light loses its shine.
We often just carry on after a stumble but it’s ok if it’s to much we are human, and we crumble.

Let’s try and think of our own state of mind. Just be with people who are loving and kind.
Please try to talk to your family and spend time with your friends.
One step at a time and your mind you can mend.

Look for you light, find your happy place.
It’s ok to say no or I am not taking that case.
If theres a lack of support, or no top cover. Just remember that you are not alone and there’s always another.

Someone who feels as you do and who will understand
Someone who will listen and give you their hand.
Do not think the worst and you have to stand alone.
Talk to someone, and your strength will be shown.

Everyone has suffered trauma, loss and strife.
But look at the positive and move on with your life.
Cherish the good times! take time to look above.
Hold the moments in your heart, with the people that you love.

13/11/2019

13/11/2019

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15/11/2018

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09/09/2018

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06/09/2018

My Mum

I remember you would hold my hand so I could walk, you taught me to be good, the alphabet and walk,
You gave me courage and held me when I cried, you taught me right from wrong and you always knew when I lied!

Sometimes we argued, both being stubborn and then fight, but when ever I was down you showed me the light. We played in the garden, water fights in the sun, you coloured and made things ....always having fun.

At times you made mistakes and things went wrong. But you showed me how to stand tall and to always be strong. You often had no help, and there is no book. But I knew that you loved me when you gave me a look.

You could call my name! And I knew I had been bad! But you still loved me when I was naughty! Even more when I was sad. You was there when I started my first day at school, you taught me how to eat and how not to drool.

You wiped my bum and cleaned up my sick.... you encouraged me when I cried, because I thought I was thick. I Remember making bases using all your chairs... I recall the many times I fell down the stairs.

In the later years we didn’t see eye to eye, but you always told me I could do it, and I learnt how to fly. Sometimes we don’t see each other and time has past. But a Mother and daughters love is built to last.

I recall the magic christmases and the effort you made. The memory of the magic, it will never fade. I remember the dinners and the Christmas tree. I remember the ghost stories you told.... scaring the s**t out of me.

You used to think it was funny hiding in the dark. You made me jump when telling people about that dog that would bark.
You always made sure we were dressed and fed. When I got stuck in the loft you let me sit on your head!

You watched me play barbies dancing in the bath, we often told stories and you made me laugh.
Me and louise in your conservatory we would camp, you chased me and Laura around....pretending to be a vamp.

Now I am a Women, and have my own son, I just hope that I can show him the same fun. I hope that I learn from you, you are my mother and friend, my love to you I will always send. We are sparrows when we are broken, but we are Eagles 🦅 when we fly.

06/09/2018

In Memory

I wish that I could hold you one more time
Tell you, you was safe and you will always be mine.
Now there’s no pain and you fly free but
I miss your voice and the way you would hold me

You asked for so little but gave me so much
You was always there for me and I miss your touch

It’s makes me so sad that i won’t see your face
My life feels empty with nothing but space

You had to leave this life and we were torn apart
But memories of you are safe in my heart

You always thought of others and showed that you care
You was taken away from this world and that just wasn’t fair

I’ll try to do the best by you which I know you will see
And when I miss you I’ll sit under our special tree

You always gave advice and you were never in the wrong
Your body gave up on you, but your heart was so strong

The angels now watch you way up above
But please no I’ll always feel nothing but love

You are the brightest star in the night sky
Go and play on the clouds and learn how to fly.

06/09/2018

TRISH

I’ll always remember meeting Patricia for the first time
She was sat in her garden drinking cold white wine
Looking very posh and stunning, she was sat in her garden seat,
Surrounded by flowers and lots of shopping bags at her feet

During this introduction I felt common and drab.
Trish said hello darlings!!! She reminded me of something off of Ab Fab
I soon found out that she was going through a divorce
Her long relationship had run its course.
I knew I wanted to help her and always be there.
So we often met up, and talked about fashion life and hair.

We became very close and she became my true friend
Through wine and talking our lives we did mend
I hated at times how hard on herself she would be
I wished that she saw the beautiful and strong women that I could see

I leanrt that she was a great mum and had been a threatre nurse
She spoke very well and I hardly heard her curse

So generous and kind her family always came first
Trish was always there for me even when I was at my worst
I was there for the family when her mum couldn’t stay
Trish came and stayed with me when Rolande went away
At times I was difficult, and I would annoy Trish
But she only wanted the best for me and that’s all she would wish

Trish was upset when she lost her job
But she found a new challenge with samples and human swabs ☹
A strong and free women she looked for a new adventure
Something that’s was her own AND NOT A JOINT VENTURE.
She dreamed big thinking of a challenge that was large
The crazy women bought herself a large Dutch barge
One time she came home to it and she felt full of stress,
To find me and Rolande pulling her kitchen apart and making a terrible mess
One Christmas we all went on holiday to centre parcs
Trish told me she had never had a stocking and some other sad remarks.
I made her a large one and placed it outside her bedroom door.
On Christmas morning she stumbled over it and almost fell on the floor.

We often had family or wedding events
Trish helped me with outfits many a shopping times were spent
When I struggled with money she treated me to my dresses and bags
There were also numerous times, I often stole her f**s

Whenever I was unwell or had some sickness emergency
Trish would dash round to me with caring urgency
I had some operations but often felt alone
But Trish was there and again her kindness she had shown

I cannot remember any time she was not involved
Or a problem or upset she didn’t help me solve
I then fell pregnant with Harry her only grandson
I didn’t have much support not even from my mum
I started nesting and wanted the house to be nice
Trish helped clean everything, I even made her clean the kitchen twice
She helped me to decorate and listened to my rants
Trish bossed me about in the garden and helped me pick plants

When Harry was born I was tired and a scared new mum
Trish was there looking after Harry and showing him lots of fun
Trish helped me look after him and always showed that’s she cares
She was the first person I called when Harry fell down the stairs.
When ever harry was sick or under the weather
She was there any time and helped me when ever
Trish teaches Harry about life and from right or wrong
She taught him how to read and write and how to be confident and strong
Trish came to Harrys plays and picked him up from school
She helped me tell him of when he acted like a fool

Trish always gave me support and advice that was effective
If it wasn’t for Trish I wouldn’t have joined the police and become a detective
When I completed my Police training and I had my pass out parade
I thought that I had no one but Trish came and she stayed
The police found the drugs planted on her whilst she was sat in the crowed
But Trish laughed, and she clapped and then told me she was proud
Trish then looked after Harry even when I ran late
She listened to my work stories that had left me in a state.

Sadly, me and Rolande decided to part
And a knew chapter of my life I knew I would start
I felt alone and again my mum didn’t care
But Trish my friend and my mum, was always there

Having a real bond with MY mum I haven’t missed
Because I have Trish and drinking prosecco and us both getting pi**ed
But on a serious note I love you more with each passing day
And I hope that my friend and mum you will always stay

Sadly, mine and Rolande’s relationship did fall apart
But I hold nothing but love for you and always you are in my heart
Rolande as a Harrys dad you as his grandmother
I could never want for more and I would never wish for another

You are always still there for me and you except my new man
You have a new friend in my partner, his name is Sam.
You have been such a good mum to me and you are my special friend
My love and support I will always send
If ever you are down, lost or needing me
Then you only have to call my name and there I will be

Trish will always be classy, and stunning in her look
She’s a great hostess and she knows how to cook
Trish is always smart and composed…. never looking tatty
She is intelligent and smart, but she can also be scatty

We are all here to celebrate that Trish is 70
But we all know she looks and behaves like she’s 20
So lets ply her with wine and give her her own ashtray
Lets all get drunk and enjoy her special day

She’s the he most amazing person, we all know her as Trish
She has so much love for you all and she can drink like a fish
I speak for all of you all, when I say our time with Trish we love the most
So can you all raise your glasses so we can give her a toast