01/30/2019
Here's why I haven't posted in 7 months. Time to be vulnerable. Social media just started to depress me. Anytime I would go on, I would feel like I wasn't doing enough with my life.
It didn't matter what I was looking at. I would create this narritive in mind about how that person was just better than me. A better builder, a better person, a better Dad...etc. So I finally just took a break from it all together.
After thinking about why this happens, I think one of the biggest reasons is that content is often just a snap shot of the best parts of life without the reality of the mediocrity or crappy stuff in between. I certainly have been guilty of creating a rose colored picture on my social. When in reality, building a business is the hardest thing I have ever done. I make mistakes when I build, I get stressed like crazy and I wonder daily how everything is going to turn out with my business.
Rather than delete insta, I want to start trying to be honest in my posts and about my journey. To show the good and the bad as I continue to build my company. My hope is twofold: First that if anyone following me deals with the same insta depression, my account going forward will be a reminder that things are not always perfect. Second, that people would then be able to celebrate with me in my highs because they have been along for the lows.
So here's to a new start...here are some pics that would have never seen the light of day in the past. Scroll to the second pic and you will see I made some big mistakes on this piece and had to start over on multiple parts of it. It was done during an insanely busy time. I was working late and not sleeping enough and made some stupid mental errors. The base didn't come out square and then I cut the doors to short. Painful.
The final piece came out awesome and is one of my favorites that we have built and I will share those photos too. But the point is that it didn't come without mistakes, heart ache, and self doubt.
@ San Diego, California