06/01/2017
Nothing to do with my business. But as my most loyal fan base, you know the trials I've endured the last several years and more. Please read I'm hoping to send some inspiration out:
I've been wanting to share something I've been holding back. And maybe someone else out there that has been hurting will realize how to turn pain into happiness. I've been bearing a very heavy cross for the last four years due to terrible health conditions and other issues. But I survived. I survived with a smile. Everyday you have to go out and find atleast one thing that gives you hope and a smile. Even if you do not feel like it. You make yourself do it or else you will become somebody you never wanted to be. It's amazing how many times Satan will set a trap for us, meaning it for harm and destruction. But when God gets involved, He takes what Satan meant to destroy us and turns it so that it works for our goood instead. Nobody else can make these things work out that way, but God can. He can take any negative situation, and through His miracle-working power use it to make us stronger and more dangerous to the enemy than we would have been without it. I've had to learn to have a good attitude no matter my circumstances.
Great Example: two weeks ago I was in a car accident. Hitting a tree after swerving from a deer. Had I not been wearing my seatbelt I most likely would have flown through the windshield and survived with brain damage or not have survived. I went through tremendous emotions and grief along with physical and mental pain. But knew that as a woman I had to pull myself together and burn the fire inside me and make it happen. I chose to find a little bit of happiness in each day. Even though my car was completely totaled. Yes the man that owned the tow lot stood there with me while I was on my knees crying my heart out over my car. Not only because I wrecked it. But because I survived it. And that was God. Since then I chose to find peace in enjoying my patio and fixing it up cozy to enjoy Bible study or a glass of wine while my pets and kids played. The car is gone. There is nothing I can go about that car. So I moved forward. So as of today I've been taking time to ride bikes with gunnar to get the mail. Or grab a cool beverage at the local Resturaunt. And I realized how hot it is. But most importantly I realized I had a much bigger smile on my face because memories were being made that couldn't be made in that car. He's not on his iPad and I'm not tuning him out listening to my music or the news. We are laughing together and being together. And just as God says you get Beauty from Ashes. So what has happened in the last two weeks is: I had an accident that I was lucky to walk away from with injuries that were able to be controlled, my car was totaled by insurance, I currently do not own a vehicle at all, my dog Sasha passed away unexpected, gunnar and I started walking and riding our bikes together and laughing and making memories, we started cleaning the house together and enjoying it and making it fun, and low and behold during all of this not only did insurance pay out more than my car was worth. But by some miracle another Armada showed up that is perfect for my family and has more features than I ever have had in my life or expected to get in my life. So next time you think you have it SO bad. Remember Satan can not trap you as long as you believe in whats Holy!